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10-ish year Reunion

Once upon a time, a little Bookcrosser named rainbowbabe started a group of journaling enthusiasts called the Journaleers. A few months later, RedheadRaye (aka Shannon Geisinger) started "substitute teachng" and ended up hijacking the Journaleers onto LiveJournal. The group went "inactive" in 2008 after three years of activity.

Two former Journaleers chatted just a touch today, and I thought it would be fun to have another homework assignment. If you want, post here.

Your homework, should you choose to accept it, is to answer the following:

How has your life changed since 2007? What do you want us to know?

What did the Journaleers mean to you in 2007?

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If these walls could talk

(copied from my personal journal, because RHR asked :))

To those of you that know me personally, I may have hinted about this little flaw of mine before. I can't paint like a normal human. I know how. I should tape off and use rollers and paint one wall at a time all that crap but I just can't. There's no heart in that perfunctory method, even if it is effective.

I prefer to use a brush. I like the feel of it in my hand, the way it pours a part of me out on to the walls through my fingertips. I like to take my time, be bathed in the color. Paint a portion of each wall - enough to get a feel of the color in the room before I go about tackling larger chunks of the room.

There's a problem or two with this method of mine. Well, that's not true. It's not the method that's inherently flawed. It's that the method is ill-suited to my living arrangements. I can't afford to completely clear a room and devote a couple of solid days to painting a room (because it's all me - Matt doesn't even want to help), so I end up spending weeks, even months finishing a room. I lose steam. I lose interest. Maybe you wouldn't notice, but there's at least a portion of a wall in every room that's partially unpainted. Usually near the ceiling or behind heavy furniture, but unfinished nonetheless. The walls, the projects stand incomplete, staring at me, screaming, 'Fail! FAIL! EPIC FAIL!' and yet, I can't change it. Can't bring myself to paint any other way, almost hurts to think about it.

Those of you I count among my friends here, I honestly believe wouldn't notice or wouldn't care to see these, my failings. Wouldn't judge me for them, think less of me because of them.

I think that's the deep-down dirty problem with a friendship or two that have recently floundered. Whether it was intentional or not, I have been weighed, I have been measured and I have been found wanting by their standards. It hurts, but I won't stand for it. I know I deserve better.
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Interesting idea for those still thinking on the Habits homework

Remember this homework assignment? I started it in February, as soon as it was assigned, and still haven't finished it!

I think my problem with the assignment is that I take my habits for granted and, often at least, don't give them much conscious thought. Also, lately, with working two jobs, one of which seems to be laid off more often than not, the habits I've developed play out differently from day to day (with my schedule), and from week to week (ie. whether I'm on both jobs or only have one to worry about).

Anyway. I'm still not done the Habits homework. However, I think I found a trick, in my net browsing, that might help me finish the assignment! I just read the PMARCA Guide to Personal Productivity. Among all the ideas to improve productivity, there is are a couple of related tips that relate to Habits:
* Create a Habits list - for the repetitive tasks you do at work or in your home; the things you do more by rote than by conscious thought.
* Simple To-Do List - make a list of three to five important or significant things to accomplish today (or tomorrow, if you like prepping the night before) on a 3x5 index card or in a planner.
* The Anti-To-Do List - on the reverse of your T-D, write down everything you accomplish in the day, as you finish tasks.

I think the Habits List will be extremely useful for completing the February homework and I'm really looking forward to getting started on it - tomorrow. :D
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Roll Call, March 24, 2008 - and an announcement

Hello all again.

I've been doing a bit of soul-searching, both for myself and for this community. And I believe this will be the last roll-call announcement for a while.

I think the journaleers have been a supportive, relatively upbeat community throughout its days, but its membership activity has been dwindling for some time now.

So tell me: have you been journaling? If you have, keep it up! It is a wonderful thing you do for yourself, or maybe for others down the road who will read your journal and think, "Wow! He/she went through the exact same thing I did!"

If, down the line, you have a journal entry you feel is worth posting to the group, please do. If you feel the need to start some new activity, to move in a new (hopefully journaling-related) direction in this group, please do.

This is our community, not mine. It is for us to creatively and organically grow and change and give new life to. Open yourself to the possibilities that it has.

Peace and happy journaling to all.

January: Sex Change (or, "On being a woman")

Journaleer Homework January:
Imagine you are member of the opposite sex. You can run with this in several different ways.

1) Write a creative entry about how a typical day might be. How is it different?
2) Focus on the serious aspects: how does society treat you differently? How would you imagine you'd act differently? Where do you think you'd be in life if you'd been born male/female?
3) Focus on the silly and menial ways your life might be different.
4) Go through your day watching for the different ways people treat men and women. Write down what you see and imagine how those differences might make you feel.
5) All of the above!

As I was growing up, people would ask - "What do you want to be when you grow up" and my answer at one stage was "I want to be a Daddy." I was a tomboy for a long time, stocky, short hair and was consistently mistaken for a boy until I was 10 or 11. I claim that my Mum wanted my hair kept short, and she counter claims that it was my choice.

I do still wonder what it must be like to be a man - how one makes different choices, receives different treatment an doffers, but how one must also reach and fulfill different expectations.

I struggle still with the shape of me and how far I match the image of "woman". I feel still that I am large lass, slightly ungainly and clumsy, not feminine or fragile enough. Not delicate, not graceful. I remember asking my Mum once, "Am I pretty?" The answer hung unanswered in the air. Isn't it interesting that I lay some of the "blame" at my Mother?

I struggle at the moment that my body is refusing to act in a maternal fashion - I am still waiting to have kids, still struggling with the pain of endometriosis. And yet I look at myself in the mirror and am reassured by what I see. I have an interesting face, not beautiful, but open, interesting, friendly, marked with smile lines. I am attractive enough. I dress in a professional way and I give out confidence. I hold my space in the world well. I have a strong body, I have stamina, I am stubborn, I have strength and keep going, running, swimming, running, yoga.

I think I'll accept the frailities, the strengths, the complications and the humour of being a woman!

Feb: Habits

Tell us about your habits, good, bad, harmless, quirky. List'em out, write'em up and tell us about new ones you'd like to start, or some you'd like to quit.

Good Habits
reading at every opportunity
regular blogging
walking to work
getting to inbox zero
making the bed
contact friends
hugging mr.ncot
phoning family
punctuality at work
making lists :-)
taking a snapshot a day
being grateful
running once a week
swimming once a week
tracking our finances regularly

Bad Habits
drinking bucketsloads of tea
being late for work
being late or slightly late for friends
worrying without purpose
leaving kitchen stuff on the side for the kitchen fairies
not loading or unloading the dishwasher (see point above!)
gettting distracted doing one job and starting 10 others
power procrastination
moaning and whinging
cleaning teeth whilst wandering round flat

New Habits
buying fresh flowers once a week
practice yoga regularly
drink more water
be more patient
cook more regularly
clean flat more consistently
cut down on caffeine
cut down on alcohol

Roll Call, March 18, 2008

I've been away from the computer the last several days, welcoming my sweetheart home from his service trip. So I'm awfully late on posting roll call.

He is home, and all is well. I wrote quite a bit while he was gone, and so did he! He hasn't kept a journal for a long time, but kept one on his trip.

Anyway, have your journaled this week?

Don't forget the TOTM! Recurring Dreams

Roll Call, March 8, 2008

Hello again! All is well here in the RHR household, although it has been a crazy week! I wish I had one more day in this weekend, but it is what it is.

Hope you are all well, and journaling! How has your journal been going? Have you been journaling this week?

Don't forget the March TOTM! Recurring dreams. Day dreams, night dreams, nightmares, beautiful fantasies. Tell us about them!